The Silence is Deafening!

The Silence is Deafening!

Alrighty then, now I understand.  Right now the crickets are happily chirping away in the otherwise silent background.  Apparently, people do judge a book by its cover! They will also take something if it’s free, even if they don’t want it.

It’s been two days since my free promo weekend ended for Alpha Awakened, and I shit you not…

Not a single additional copy has sold. NOT ONE! [Sag, sigh, cry, regroup]

I finally understand the term ‘starving artist,’ mainly because I am! I’m earning just barely enough from the ghost writing to feed myself and my dog, god help me if something breaks or an unexpected repair materializes.  You all know what I’m talking about, don’t pretend you don’t.  Oh yeah, the car needs tires! Good thing I rarely leave the house!

I’m also still waiting on reviews.  This is a consumer driven, reviews mean everything kind of business.  A staggering 3500 copies of Alpha Awakened were downloaded.  I’ve received three reviews in the US, and Five really great reviews in the UK.  THANKS UK!!! Love you guys!

If only ten percent of the downloads gave me a good review it would make all the difference in the world to my standings on Amazon.  I say GOOD reviews because I really don’t need any bad ones.  As the following blog states, I already know where my lacks are, I’m working on them, getting better daily, this shit don’t happen overnight! I’m practicing like crazy! Totally focused on becoming the best damn writer I can be! 

So, if you hated it, this is a great time to stay quiet, but if you liked it, please, please, please give me a good review!! I need them like you can’t imagine!

I have received some fabulous, “fan mail,” via twitter and my Facebook page and a couple glowing comments on my new blog page, this one that you are reading right now at ( or my other blog at Thanks guys for taking the time to look me up and send me your praise! You really have no idea what that means to me and I will be eternally grateful to anyone that supports me and follows me on this new adventure.  I also won’t forget you if and or when I make it big! I have every intention of making it big, so you better look out ‘cause here I come! 

I’m fishing for my audience.  I’m searching for my peeps.  Even though I find this microcosm of the romance/erotica world quite shallow, my greatest hope is that I am somehow able to deliver something deeper and more meaningful. My personal message and continuous thread in all my work is that there should be NO shame in our vocabulary or in our hearts.  Love is a powerful and potent source of energy and power; and finally I fully believe that we all need to talk to and recognize our own inner beasts. If we bury them, they only get stronger.  Silence is an allow, ignorance is an allow; captivity and restraints only tempt and intrigue.  Have a conversation with the part of you that scares you the most. I think most of you would be surprised at what you see and hear.

And let me leave you with this fabulous quote:


And, here is a link to my new author page on Amazon with all my books listed in one place.  You can subscribe there to get updates when I publish the next installments in both my new series…


About Payne Hawthorne AdventuresinPayne

My strange life, my journey and life lessons. This blog feed is all non-fiction, real life, me, myself and I. This is where you will find the person I am aside from all my fictional books, stories and characters. This is Payne!
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2 Responses to The Silence is Deafening!

  1. I love the stuff you wrote about your mission, no shame/get to know your inner beast… Kelly, life is the best it can be when you’re living TRUE… You rock baby!!! C


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