The Rightness in, being wrong.


You were, are, will always be right about me. All of it, every call you made, most would agree with you on every count. They’d take your side and say I was indeed the crazy one.

I’m owning it. Yes, my life is ‘non-traditional’. Yes, I look at life through delusional colored lenses. Yes, I am crazy. I’m not insane, but I am battier than a fruitcake, or something like that.

I’m a tortured poet for one thing, us creative types are often given a pass, but then, I also believe in angels who benevolently guide and help me on my soul’s journey through lives. In a different time, I’d be locked away in a padded cell for speaking of such stuff. So yeah, you are the majority. You get the win on this one.

But here is the crux of it. You’re too ‘normal’. You believe this program. You’re a blue pill person. I thought you were different, one of my kind, but I was so wrong. See, there again, you win through default.

I’ve never once, my entire life, wanted to be normal, or fit in. I’ve never been the popular one, and if by chance I happen to be among many and we agree, I figure I’m probably doing something wrong. I’m a freak, and I love being so different you can never draw lines around who I am.


Honestly, I can’t imagine anyone able or willing to keep up, or understand, or be anywhere near where I am on this obscure little path. I don’t want to follow the rules of this matrix. Or the ethics of this society. I personally think everyone else is completely off their rockers, and unbalanced in all aspects of their lives. Working like ants toward nothing but death. Glorifying busy, and romancing fatigue like a lover. So busy following the rules and doctrine, they never think for themselves, or evolve. None are honest, or real, or close to authentic.

I am 100% authentically me, no apologies and no shame. I choose to dwell in my NOW, and I pick love.  If that is crazy, then so be it!

So, you go ahead with your rightness and stay on that wide highway. I’m perfectly fine over here on my narrow trail, following my bliss and my heart and finding peace in being wrong.


About Payne Hawthorne AdventuresinPayne

My strange life, my journey and life lessons. This blog feed is all non-fiction, real life, me, myself and I. This is where you will find the person I am aside from all my fictional books, stories and characters. This is Payne!
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