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About Payne Hawthorne AdventuresinPayne

My strange life, my journey and life lessons. This blog feed is all non-fiction, real life, me, myself and I. This is where you will find the person I am aside from all my fictional books, stories and characters. This is Payne! https:www.paynehawthorne.com https://www.facebook.com/PayneHawthorneAuthor https://www.facebook.com/houesofpaynepublishing

Dear Men…

I continue to get men who wish to interact with me, or “Get to know me.” If I send them away or ignore them, they say I’m a bitch. I’m really not, but I am tired and I’m all used … Continue reading

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The Important Things

The Important Things I’m so tired. It’s just living that wears me out. Living without what I consider the important things. Stuff like honesty, soul searching and sharing our inner truths. Things like intimacy, love, true passion; not just the … Continue reading

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Ramblings of an old, mad woman…

Just an FYI, everything I’ve posted here, and pretty much everything I write, I automatically post in this album on Pinterest: Behind my Mirror The ramblings of an old woman, maybe mad, (as in crazy), maybe not, who really cares … Continue reading

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Another Fucking Year

(This was written on Christmas Eve, 2016) There is something about the holidays I find depressing. I know I’m not alone and many feel the same. It’s a stark reminder of yet another year passing. It’s cold, and I’m still alone, … Continue reading

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My Truth

It’s strange how a lifetime of first thoughts can change. It took a few months, but I no longer wake up and wonder, “Will today be the day I meet, him?” Him being the man I was created for. All … Continue reading

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The Rightness in, being wrong.

You were, are, will always be right about me. All of it, every call you made, most would agree with you on every count. They’d take your side and say I was indeed the crazy one. I’m owning it. Yes, … Continue reading

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My Forty-Ninth Year

I am now mature enough to differentiate between the physical and the emotional, and to know that often, they do not intersect. Continue reading

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